i guess that’s why the call it the blues…
i have been in hormone hell. let me catch you up.
so, as some know, i was starting yaz a few weeks ago. having never really been on BC, i had no idea what i would feel like. i was worried about water retention, but figured i could have handled that. what i could not handle were the emotions that went with it.
i have been an emotional wreck since starting yaz. crying for hours, for little reasons. it’s like i could not control it. and, even sticking to the bfl plan, i was retaining water. i called my dr, told him what was going on. he told me to get off the pills and we could find another one that worked better for me. i told him maybe the best pill is no pill at all. so, i am off the hormones. i feel like there are traces still in my body, and my weight is starting to come down. it is just something i can’t handle right now. i start back at school soon, which is emotional in itself having to leave the baby for the first time, and i need no artificial hormones making it worse. i have felt depressed beyond belief. my dr. told me to keep an eye on it, mentioned late-onset postpartum depression, which can hit as late as 8-10 months. i am hoping it’s just the yaz. but, i do feel down and not at all like myself.
on to the dieting…had a good day yesterday and a great workout today on a (drumroll): empty stomach! was really happy about that. ate some wonderful protein afterwards with my carb portion and lots of water. trying to think about working about before i start back to school. since we have to LEAVE the house at 7:15, i guess i would need to get up about 5, workout, shower, get 3 kids ready….so, thinking workouts will happen at 4:30 after we all get home from school. hopefully i can time my midday snack and work out three hours after. today’s exercise really lifted my spirits…hopefully this will help with my moods.
turkey burgers on ww buns tonight for dinner. then a shake right before bed. as my eating gets back to normal, i feel like my life is, too.
hope everyone is doing fantastic on their diets and workout plans. i hope to hear from y’all! i’ve missed my bloggy friends and am glad to be back!
catwmn said,
August 8, 2008 at 10:14 am
Ooh I know all too well what you speak of with the BCP. It made me literally PSYCHO. I only stayed on for two weeks and immediately stopped. Then I made the hubby get a Vasectomy. I figured since we had 3 kids I knew we didn’t want anymore and after having one vaginally and the twins by C-section I figured the LEAST he could do was get the little snip.
It’s done WONDERS for us in the bedroom too. We can be more spontaneous now and don’t have to constantly worry about looking at calendars or using messy condoms or creams. WOO HOO!
I hope you get back to feeling like your old self soon!! ((Hugs))
shanna said,
August 8, 2008 at 1:54 pm
cat, that makes me feel so much better to know i am not just a BC weirdo. it was like someone else was in control of my body and i had NO idea what i was doing. feeling a little better each day. i have been checking your blog, and am so impressed by your commitment. amazing! glad we get to do this journey together!
catwmn said,
August 8, 2008 at 5:36 pm
No No Not a freak at all…My sister is also very sensitive to th BCP. I think some women just can’t tolerate them at all.
Yeah I know how you felt…I felt the same way. It was like I had that little devil in my head. I hated myself, my kids, my husband and literally the whole WORLD. I was NOT myself at all.
It will pass. It takes about 10 days for it to all pass out of your system after you take the last pill. Make sure you drink LOTS of water to help flush it out.
I’m glad we get to do this together too!!
karen said,
August 13, 2008 at 4:48 am
I’m glad you got off the BCP since it was making you so whacked out! I first went on BC long before I was actually “using” it as a way to control my cramps which were about killing me. I’ve been on quite a few different kinds over the years depending on the doctor and with some of them I was a raging hormonal banshee and with others it was almost like they were laced with valium in comparison
Keep keeping us posted! (Hopefully my feedreader will start behaving, too!)